2009, Man what a Year!!!!

2009, is almost over! It has been a heck of a year for us! We had the best thing ever happen to us when our daughter, Madison, was born. There were some crummy things that happened too. We gave up our house, filed bankruptcy, and had to learn to accept lots of help. This year I think has been a life changing year for me. I have learned that things are of no use, I still like things though, don't get me wrong. To be happy you just need your loved ones around you, support from friends, and a "home". I definitely had to rethink what I knew that I needed in life to be happy, but found so many blessings along the way. I know that God is here for me and my family and having his love go with me everywhere I go is so much more than I could ever ask for. Having a husband that changed his career, worked his ass off to support us, gave up the home he bought for us, and got through it has made me soooo proud. He helped me sooo much when Madi was born. If not for him I think I would have gone crazy. I know that sounds sad to say now, but it is hard to enjoy your newborn baby when you are a worry-wart and you don't know when you are going to be able to pay bills, and if your husband will ever find a job. We have figured out that the people who truly love you, will be there for you when you really, really need it. These are the people in my life that words cannot express the gratitude we have for them. We learned that it is ok to accept help, after being sooo self sufficient for so long. It has been hard. Then you have to realize that God put these people in your life for a reason and you need to accept there help. You never know the blessing you are to them and the blessing that others will see from their giving and your acceptance. I love my life, even if I don't own a home, I have crappy credit, I have no money in savings and not sure when things are gonna change. God still blesses me and my family everyday. I have the most beautiful, wonderful baby girl in the world. I have a husband that loves and supports me. I have parents that support and give us sooo much. I have great friends and church family. I may not be rich by the worlds standards, but in our way we absolutely are loaded!!!!

More Changes: Heart does not equal Head

So.... we have been soooo blessed to be living in such a great place and with people who are truly good friends. Now we have been given another good offer. Our youth leader, from when we were growing up, has offered to let us move into her basement apt. PROS: It is FREE, it is bigger than where we are at now, will be 2 mins from my parents, probably have a better time getting back to work, will be in the area we are going to get our own house at, will have a dishwasher, a dining room table, our own washer and dryer and possibly extra room to put the baby's bed in. CONS: We are really happy where we are at and love our friends and their girls.
I know this is the right decision, but my heart is not in it. We have been sooo much happier than I ever thought we would be here that I am sooo scared to mess it up. With it being free though we can save up money towards getting our own house with my parents. Everyone I talk to thinks this is the best decision for us and our family. Again, in my head know that it is the right decision, but my heart hurts a little. Our friends we stay with gave us a place of our own when no one else did and I will be forever grateful!!! I love me some Whaley's!!!!