Motherhood

So as much as I realize I am a mother now, it was really strange when someone at my work last week told me to have a good first Mother's Day. Even still on the day I was thinking mainly about this day was for my mother. I made sure to give her a mother's card and a grandmother's card from Madison. I made sure to write her a nice note to tell her how much I love and appreciate her and she had to hold back her tears. Even though with our finances so skint at the moment I told Ray not to get me a present, but he did get me some great cards. One from him and one from Madison. He does a great job at picking cards, they always seem so perfect. This day that I am now part of is the greatest club to be apart of. I love this little girl more than I could ever realize and somehow the more days I spend with her the more and more I love her. I don't want to be away from her at all. She is the reason I am on this Earth and I am sure of that more than I am anything. I hope I can be half the mother my mom is to me. I hope I give her so much love she always feels complete and happy. My mom has done this for me. I love how I am the one that knows how to get her to sleep, how she likes to be held, how to get her to "talk" to me and I am the one that's feeding her. I love being her mother, and it's hard to believe in months to come I will hear her call me that sweet name of mama. I now realize so many things don't matter anymore. I don't care if we have lots of things, I just want her and Raymon and I to be together and healthy. I am a new person, with a new life and I love it!!!