Remembering to have Faith

So... Madison has been apart of our lives for almost 3 weeks now. It has been wonderful, but trying at times. Trying to always figure out what this little person wants and needs is not as easy as it sounds. She has been a gassy girl so mylicon has been our friend and really seems to help her. Sometimes she sleeps really well, and sometimes not. Sometimes you can put her down and sometimes she just wants to be held. Even though I am VERY tired, I look down at her when I am feeding her and I am just amazed. This little girl is all mine. She is the sweetest thing I have ever seen and I fall in love all over again and again. God got us through nine months and gave us a great birthing experience too.

I am trying to hold onto that faith, b/c two weeks before Madison was born Raymon was fired from his job(long story, very stupid, sorry not getting into it). We are currently are fighting it, but not sure it will work. He has put out alot of applications and either has not heard from them, or the positions have already been filled. I am really trying to just give all this to God, but it is hard for me. I am trying to be patient, but after a month it is really hard. I remember he will never give me more than I can handle and he will not forsake me. He gave me this beautiful baby girl and I want to concentrate all on her and not worry about the other stuff. So I am asking for prayers for us, prayers of faith, patience, finding a job soon, and giving it all up to him. I want to believe in good things and know that God will give us just what we need, and it may be on his time, not ours.

The greatest day of my life!!!!

Madison Yvonne Sanders arrived 4/1/09 (on her due date) at 3:14pm. She was 7lbs 12 ounces, and 21 and 1/2 inches long. We waited 9 long months for her, but it was so worth it!!! I never knew what that love was that people talk about and now I do. I feel like I am finally apart of the coolest and greatest club ever!!! She is so beautiful and so perfect!!!

The day before we went to the hospital thinking it was time, but my contractions were not close enough together and after a few hours I was only dialated 1 centimeter and contractions about 7 mins apart, so we were sent home. The gave me some Ambien to sleep. When we got home I took an Ambien and slept for about 2 hours. I woke up and the contractions were so intense I couldn't go back to sleep. Around 3:30a.m I called my midwife and told her my contractions were closer together, more intense and closer to 5 mins apart, so she said come in. We got there and I was 2-3 centimeters, so they said we are having a baby today. They took some blood for labs, started an IV, gave some pain medicine, and ran a liter of fluid through me. Then they came in and gave me an epidural (it was not bad at all) and I was flying high and pain free!!! Then they broke my water and gave me some pitocin. A few hours later I was 5 centimeters, and said she would probably come around 7p.m. Around 2pm they checked me again and I was 8-9 centimeters and the midwife said we are having a baby in about 30mins!!! We were very happy b/c they were talking about a possible c-section b/c every time I had a contraction it made the babies heart rate go down, which they knew was most likely compression on the umbilical cord. So, they got all ready and I started pushing. I only had to push for about 20 mins and she was out. As soon as her head came out the midwife cut the cord b/c it was around her neck and then helped guide her out!!! She didn't cry right away, which again was good, b/c when they broke me water there was meconium(baby poop), so they had a chance to suction her before she inhaled and possibly inhaled that meconium. So she was finally here!!!!

I still cannot believe that God has given me something so wonderful!!! Raymon and I are truly blessed to be able to receive such a gift!!!! I thank everyone for there prayers, help, gifts and everything we have been given! We don't deserve all of this, but are glad to have received it!!!!