Life Can Be Frustrating

So..... sometimes people say the worst critic is yourself. I think that is DEFINITELY true! I feel like I have been so fortunate for so many things in my life. I have great husband, a perfect Savior, a beautiful house, a good job, wonderful parents, good friends and super church family. Then there are some things that totally suck!!! I like the current job I have but I am very ready to move up into management. I am almost at a 2 year waiting point for something to happen. I know patience is a virtue, but it is also a pain in the ass! Sometimes I wonder if it is going to happen for me? I have tried so hard to find my place in this world, with nursing school and college and it just wasn't for me. I feel like this really is, but will it ever happen for me? I also don't know why Ray and I always have (what I feel like) is too much debt? I think credit cards are of the devil!!!! I don't know why we do things to ourselves and then it makes us crazy? I don't want to sound like poor me or unappreciative of the things I have, but sometimes life just feels like it is going nowhere in the direction Iwant it to!!! I know I just need rely on God to take care of things, but sometimes I feel so out of control and I hate that!!! I just want some direction. Sometimes I feel like a 26 year-old loser!!! I pray God can give me peace and help me to rely on him. I want him to help me realize I am not in control and he has it all under control!!!!