Good News

Sooooo... the news is I am pregnant! I can hardly believe it! I go back and forth between being so excited and so overwhelmed!!! I cannot believe it!!! I will go to the doctor on August 18th to have an ultrasound and see the baby!!! I want everyone to pray for us and the baby! I will update as time goes along!!!

Life Can Be Frustrating

So..... sometimes people say the worst critic is yourself. I think that is DEFINITELY true! I feel like I have been so fortunate for so many things in my life. I have great husband, a perfect Savior, a beautiful house, a good job, wonderful parents, good friends and super church family. Then there are some things that totally suck!!! I like the current job I have but I am very ready to move up into management. I am almost at a 2 year waiting point for something to happen. I know patience is a virtue, but it is also a pain in the ass! Sometimes I wonder if it is going to happen for me? I have tried so hard to find my place in this world, with nursing school and college and it just wasn't for me. I feel like this really is, but will it ever happen for me? I also don't know why Ray and I always have (what I feel like) is too much debt? I think credit cards are of the devil!!!! I don't know why we do things to ourselves and then it makes us crazy? I don't want to sound like poor me or unappreciative of the things I have, but sometimes life just feels like it is going nowhere in the direction Iwant it to!!! I know I just need rely on God to take care of things, but sometimes I feel so out of control and I hate that!!! I just want some direction. Sometimes I feel like a 26 year-old loser!!! I pray God can give me peace and help me to rely on him. I want him to help me realize I am not in control and he has it all under control!!!!

Great Visit

So.... I am back from good ole PA. Amish country in Lancaster county. I visited my old NGCSU roommate Lara, her husband Marc, and their girls Hannah (19months) and Elizabeth(1month). I had a GREAT time! It was sooooo good to see Lara. I only get to see her about once a year since she moved to PA. We hung out with her girls, went to Shady Maple Smorgasbord(for those of you who don't know it is like golden corral times 3 and much better quality), saw "Sex in the City", went on a Buggy ride through an Amish farm, watched movies, looked through old photos and had an overall spectacular time. I loved how when you drive places you see large farms with beautiful landscapes. Lara and Marc have a beautiful house and beautiful girls. To see Lara with Hannah is wonderful! Hannah's world revolves around her mom and that love is unbelieveable! I hope to one day have a great family like them. I would look around at Lara's world and I cannot believe how her life has changed since our goofy days in college. I miss her alot and I was so glad to spend a week with her since I usually just see her for an afternoon. Lara and Marc have a beautiful home, a spiritual church, and a great extended family!!!

Things I will miss: Hannah and I growling at each other while I chased her, Hannah screaming at me, holding snuggly Elizabeth, Hannah saying "OoooooKay", playing Battle of the Sexes, watching Cinderella over and over, Elizabeth's endless grunts and squeaks while she eats, Hannah wanting to kiss Elizabeth all the time, singing "Hannah, Banana", eating Shady Maple, talking about our hair dying experince at NGCSU, looking through some old crazy photos at NGCSU, seeing Hannah smile, me trying to play dance, dance revolution, Marc and Lara kissing each other good-bye, the beautiful scenery as you drove places, Lara singing so beautifully, the rolling hills, and #1 Lara!!!!