Tomorrow and this weekend

So yesterday was Raymon's 29th Birthday and we a great birthday bash!!! All I have to say is I have some great friends!!! Homma, and Ari with Chad's help made a cute suprise filled with mini baby bottle shots called"baby mama drama". Ray and I got cute new mom and dad hats and necklaces. It was soooo fun!!! I still had a blast even though I had no drinks!!! I was just so happy to have all our friends together!!! I cannot believe that tomorrow we get to hear and see our baby!! I am so excited and nervous!!! Please pray that everything is fine with me and the baby!!!

On a side note we found out this weekend that people we thought were friends are not really. Friends are people who trust you and know you well. If they cannot forgive you for minor mistakes than maybe they are not worth it??? There is to much drama in this life without people having to add to it? If there are people that constantly add drama to our lives we probably need to move on from them!

Good News

Sooooo... the news is I am pregnant! I can hardly believe it! I go back and forth between being so excited and so overwhelmed!!! I cannot believe it!!! I will go to the doctor on August 18th to have an ultrasound and see the baby!!! I want everyone to pray for us and the baby! I will update as time goes along!!!

Life Can Be Frustrating

So..... sometimes people say the worst critic is yourself. I think that is DEFINITELY true! I feel like I have been so fortunate for so many things in my life. I have great husband, a perfect Savior, a beautiful house, a good job, wonderful parents, good friends and super church family. Then there are some things that totally suck!!! I like the current job I have but I am very ready to move up into management. I am almost at a 2 year waiting point for something to happen. I know patience is a virtue, but it is also a pain in the ass! Sometimes I wonder if it is going to happen for me? I have tried so hard to find my place in this world, with nursing school and college and it just wasn't for me. I feel like this really is, but will it ever happen for me? I also don't know why Ray and I always have (what I feel like) is too much debt? I think credit cards are of the devil!!!! I don't know why we do things to ourselves and then it makes us crazy? I don't want to sound like poor me or unappreciative of the things I have, but sometimes life just feels like it is going nowhere in the direction Iwant it to!!! I know I just need rely on God to take care of things, but sometimes I feel so out of control and I hate that!!! I just want some direction. Sometimes I feel like a 26 year-old loser!!! I pray God can give me peace and help me to rely on him. I want him to help me realize I am not in control and he has it all under control!!!!

Great Visit

So.... I am back from good ole PA. Amish country in Lancaster county. I visited my old NGCSU roommate Lara, her husband Marc, and their girls Hannah (19months) and Elizabeth(1month). I had a GREAT time! It was sooooo good to see Lara. I only get to see her about once a year since she moved to PA. We hung out with her girls, went to Shady Maple Smorgasbord(for those of you who don't know it is like golden corral times 3 and much better quality), saw "Sex in the City", went on a Buggy ride through an Amish farm, watched movies, looked through old photos and had an overall spectacular time. I loved how when you drive places you see large farms with beautiful landscapes. Lara and Marc have a beautiful house and beautiful girls. To see Lara with Hannah is wonderful! Hannah's world revolves around her mom and that love is unbelieveable! I hope to one day have a great family like them. I would look around at Lara's world and I cannot believe how her life has changed since our goofy days in college. I miss her alot and I was so glad to spend a week with her since I usually just see her for an afternoon. Lara and Marc have a beautiful home, a spiritual church, and a great extended family!!!

Things I will miss: Hannah and I growling at each other while I chased her, Hannah screaming at me, holding snuggly Elizabeth, Hannah saying "OoooooKay", playing Battle of the Sexes, watching Cinderella over and over, Elizabeth's endless grunts and squeaks while she eats, Hannah wanting to kiss Elizabeth all the time, singing "Hannah, Banana", eating Shady Maple, talking about our hair dying experince at NGCSU, looking through some old crazy photos at NGCSU, seeing Hannah smile, me trying to play dance, dance revolution, Marc and Lara kissing each other good-bye, the beautiful scenery as you drove places, Lara singing so beautifully, the rolling hills, and #1 Lara!!!!

Grandma's Looking Down on Me

So Saturday night tip wise I had the best night at work I had ever had. I was doing pretty good, but then my last table of the night was a group of softball tournament girls and their parents. One guy was joking around with me and the were all really nice. Then this gentleman paid the bill at the end and left me $160 tip! I was blown away!!! I could not believe it!! I wondered why? Why me? Why would something this great happen to me? What did I really do to deserve this? Then I realized it was June 28th, which is Grandma's birthday. The first birthday without her. I really feel like she was up there making sure I was taken care of that night. It was my last night of work before going out of town for a week on a trip. A trip I was so excited about, but unsure financially about missing a week of work? Then this happened and I felt like, WOW!!! I could go on my trip and really enjoy myself! I usually don't read into things like that to much, but I don't know? As soon as I realized it I just felt so happy inside, so different! I think she is looking down on Raymon and I and making sure we were taken care of well!!! I love you Grandma and I miss you!!!!

Break Time

I am so glad that Raymon and I are each about to have a week off, even if we are going to be apart. Raymon is going to NC to shoot with the other people of the RWVA. He is excited to spend an ENTIRE week shooting and becoming a better rifleman. I will be heading further north to good ole PA. I am visiting Lara(my NGCSU roommate). I have not been to PA in almost 4 years and I excited to be going. I am going to See Lara and Marc's house, see Hannah(19 months) and meet baby Elizabeth( 1 month). It is soooo nice just to get away from the real world for awhile. We have been so busy the past couple of months, Ray working tons, and me doing the Monroe opening, and then the passing of Grandma. We drove to Tampa and then 4 days later to Missouri. We drove like 2500 miles in a week and a half. The emotional drain also took its tole. Then we came back and jumped straight back to work and have been going hardcore ever since. So I think it's time we deserve a week away from reality! I am glad we can do our own things that we have fun doing too!!! Wish us well with Raymon driving and me flying!!! Hopefully good tales when we return!!! MUAH!!!!

New Things

So many people may already know, but my best-friend is dating my little brother. It sounds so crazy! When you first think about it it is bizarre, but the more you think about it, it seems natural. Here are two people you, YOU have thrown together in different situations for YEARS. Then you realize how it really is natural! Then for once in your life you go on a double date where you are glad to see both people and hang out with them! This is one of those things that can be so great!!! Life is always throwing suprises at you and you just have to remember that God has a sense of humor too!

Being sick stinks

Sooooo this morning I woke up and I was still not feeling well. All that general cold stuff: cough, sneezing, running nose, nice green sputum, and a little short of breath. So I have an upper respiratory infection and went to the doctor and got myself a good ole antibiotic. So hopefully in the next few days I will start to feel better. At this time I cannot afford to miss to much work since Raymon and I are both going out of town the first week in July. I hope that everyone else has a good week.

I pray for alot of people. My family, and friends, but this week I am especially praying for some co-workers such as Cliff and his dad. As his dad didn't have enough to deal with his kidney's failing now he has a brain tumor and they are starting radiation this week. I pray the tumor can be healed and he can enjoy his children for a good while longer. I still pray for Judi too. After the sudden death of her husband I hope she can still see how much she has to live for! I pray so many other things too!!! Thank you Lord for all my gifts you have given me. I hope everyone else can pray that too!!!

First Blog

So this is a my first blog. Where do I begin? I am married to my best friend and the love of my life. I work at Longhorn as a server and hope to soon go into management. I love life. Most people think I am a little crazy, dorky, cooky, and fun. I am on the outside totally optimistic, but not always that way on the inside. I really don't think life was meant for us to go through just getting by. I think God wants us to enjoy every step of the way. Life is what you make it and if you are unhappy all the time that is what your life will be. I try to do things that I enjoy. Hanging out with my hubby, going out with friends, seeing my family and going to cool restaurants in Atlanta. This is not where I thought I would be at 26, but I am happy!!! That is what really counts and thats my motto: Do what makes you happy, as long as it's not illegal or hurting anyone else.